so, first of all, i cooked fish today on the George Foreman grill, which is awesome btw, and totally ended up burning myself. the fun part is that i now have a pause symbol on my arm! my dad says i should try and make a play symbol on the other arm to even it out... lol
secondly, i've been writing a song. don't know that anyone's going to ever hear it, but it's a work in progress so i guess i'll just keep working on it. i've also been writing down my dreams. for those who don't know me, i didn't used to dream. it's been a very long time... but as my sister intelligently pointed out, it was probably because i didn't sleep well enough. but now that i've gotten my new bed... dreams are here again! and they're weird... really weird... but they could probably make some really interesting movies if i ever get that far.
for topic "C," and thank you to Craig Ferguson for that sequence order, i've thought up a pen name. i'm not gonna tell you what it is because then it won't be much of a secret name... oh well, no one follows me here anyway... so i'll tell you the first name. Katherine. with a K. i really like that name. if i ever felt the desire to change my name it's totally going to be Katherine.
and for the forth and final this evening, i've got to find me a new job but am struggling with the desires of my family and what i actually want for my own well-being and desires in life. sure, it'd be nice to stay near my family for all time, if they didn't live in a city i don't want to be in, weren't driving me nuts, and were actually my friends whom i hold very near and dear to my heart and don't want to live more than a couple minutes from ever but is very likely seeing as we're all going different ways now. (i have an odd way to view my relationships and i'm thinking that'll have to wait for another time. this shall serve as my reminder) but back to the finding a new job...
i have talent. i just don't know what to do with it. i'd do great in films. not as a talent, i'm not one of those aspiring movie stars, and i have nothing against them, but i'm not one. i'm one of those people who is behind the scenes, either filming or editing, managing or assisting the director. i've done sound, lights, graphics, even editing spanish news programs, and i don't know what to do with any of it! i also love live theatre and i absolutely LOVE, with all captials on that word, stage managing. i absolutely excel at it. for the last two plays i've managed i've basically been the prop master, light board operator, costumer and stage manager and i have found no joy, other than being around my friends, in the last three months greater than the time i spent working on either Pillowman, my new favorite play, or Reefer Madness: the Musical!, which is running now. now i just need to figure out how to do what i love for the rest of my life whilst being paid to do it. i have student loans... they don't go away by themselves... my drastic means to this end would be the armed forces, which is honestly a serious consideration at this point.
i guess we'll see what happens...
